Seduce my mind and you can have my body....find my soul and you'll have me forever...
-My favorite bunt

GO AWAY!!!....you....yeah you....go away!!!!!

I see you....but do you ever fucking see me????

If there was a law that said people who wrtte crap online should be arrested....they would have thrown me in the cell eons ago and thrown away the keys....

It's me vs them.....and unlike all those years ago,when I had enough support to fight them off...I face them alone today......they take different forms to hunt me down....I have managed to escape every single time.....this time round,I'm fighting them.....you have more to fear than I ever will!!!

It's been a long time since I've felt this way.......I have sarah Mclchlan's "FALLEN" playing in my head right now......it's a bad feeling really.....and to top it all,the weather outside isnt exactly helping....where's the freaking sunshine when i so desperately need it......not too many thoughts in my head really...my heart's feeling a little heavy....could do with a dose of warmth....both at a mental and physical level....just a warm hug.......and someone to say hey kid it's not too bad.....for the first time in a long time,I dont feel like dialing the digits to reach out to anybody...not even my folks.It's like a plethora of emotions just waiting to explode......I'm trying so hard to hold back the tears....that in turn leads to a very nauaseas,dizzy feeling which probably happens due to the lack of oxygen.....like I'm suffocating....like everything is closing in on me....that I need to get up and run....It's reallly my body reacting to my state of mind.....kinds sucks really......Give me a dark room tonight and I'll sit there and cry......cry for a long time.....for no real reason.....

BOND.....vagaBOND......hahahahahahha.....okay delirious people have special rights to post crappy blogs!!!!!!

Between comfort food and spilling out my gutts to the world and there by degrading the quality of writing online...it's a tough choice really......since I'm on a diet right now....you all will be seeing more of the latter.....it's all for a good cause really.....to keep my sanity is a cause!

My roomie always says "my courage grows with every attempt to intimidate me"...courtesy, the heroin of "pride and prejudice".....and believe me,she means it when she says it.....I on the other hand think that people fall into two categories...the ones who are genuinely intimidating(now these people I can handle).....and then there are those whose soul aim in life is to intimidate you....(more like victimze you).......it's just the way that they're born.....not really their fault......they would be in shock if u told them that they intimidate you.....I never really stand up to these people....I'm not sure if it's the lack of courage or the lack of enthusiasm to make an effort with these people....I simply filter them out....they fail to exist where I'm concerned........All said and done,I think I'd like to rephrase the above and say..."my indifference grows with every attempt to intimidate me"...you can quote me on this one!!

If your conversations revolve around other people's miseries and their pain....if your entire being is curious about another person's misery and you want to know the whole truth,not because you can make a difference....but just because.....then you have some serious issues...more issues than the person whose leading the life that your o so curious about....you need help....some serious help....

Just sitting here listening to a random song from Freaky Chakra....random thoughts about you... ......I'm getting close to what I've wanted out of life.....not quite there yet......but I'm getting there...and each time I think I'm "mentally fucked"....I think about all your fundas....thanks for listening....thanks for not questioning me even once....codey,I pray with all my heart that your happy.....wherever you are.....