I am finally getting over the entire "I am a looser" phase and moving on to the next phase of my life which is also known as "the cynical bitch" phase...I'm starting to like the new phase actually.....makes me wonder which is worse....me whining non stop twenty four hours a day OR me acting cynical and bitchy all day.....either way,it's easier to be a bitch!!!!

Another 23 hours to go......thinking about the past year.....I'm glad I made all those mistakes.....I'm still learning from most of them.....

Learning to let go was the hardest thing for me this year.

No matter how much u love some people,they will never love u....expecting someone to love and trust u just because u do is the biggest mistake in the world.But what can i say,I'm only human.....

Forgiving myself is as important as forgiving those who hurt me.

Learning to respect the one person i've underestimated all my life-ME.
Respect my body,my intelligence,my soul and my entire being.If I dont respect myself,then nobody will.
No matter what anybody else thinks,I know i have the potential to make a difference.

I have flaws,a weakness for arrogant men,a need to be loved by everyone i love and care about,I have expectations from everyone around me,I am an annoying child to my parents,I am a selfish,self centred bitch,I have imaginary friends,I am demented on most days,I am not punctual,I cry,I hate and love with equal passion,there is a lot of anger inside me,I curse,I dont say my prayers every night,I hurt,I hate criticism of any sort,I crave for attention and I have the strength to accept my flaws and that i'm human.

You get to choose who you want to be with at the end of the day.......you always will have that choice.

Walked away from a lot of lives this year......

Human emotions are complicated,there's always a shade of grey....not everything is black and white where emotions are concerned.

Thanks to the one lady who helped me find the strength within me.....she helped me help myself and i couldnt have done it without her or without me.

Hope,that's what keeps me going, that tommrow will be a better day.....and if it isnt,there's always a day after that......