As she sat there.....staring outside the window......all she could see was the moon....no stars in the sky......cold cold night......would she end up alone on a cold cold night......10 years from now what would she be doing?......looking up at the sky again for an answer?.....

People from her make believe world had suddenly dissapeared.....they had helped her overcome the loneliness all these years and she had been so selfish.....she had let them go....and she never looked back and said goodbye.....as she sat there staring at the moon she wished they were back in her life again.....they had been her family.....she told them everything.....suddenly she had nowhere to go and noone to talk to.....Rhishab had left and she hadn't even noticed......

What made her sad was not the fact that they had left.....perhaps it was their time.....but it had taken her 21 years to come out into the real world and somehow she wasnt quite ready.....she knew she couldnt take another 21 to settle down......

But the lonely moon in the sky on this cold December night made her realise that she was probably not the only one feeling that way........

Weird day......

People taking me for granted......bad idea......not the same kid i use to be......time for u all to grow up now!!!!....

Sometimes u wish someone would notice u not becoz u like them......but becoz it gives u a freaking cheap thrill......makes u a low human being....or does that just make u human......not quite sure.....

Low feeling.........Wish i could make myself scarce for a couple of days.....

Yeah! I've left the world behind
I am safe here in my mind
I'm Free to speak with my own kind
This is my life, this is my life
I'll decide not you
-Judas Priest

This is something Payal sent me ages ago.......must have read it a hundred times,,,,,,,,dont know who wrote it though,,,,,,

Things you did'nt do.......

remember the day i'd borrowed your brand new car
and dented it?
i thought you would kill me but you did'nt.

and remember the time i dragged you to the beach
and you said it would rain and it did?
i thought yu would tell me 'i told you so'but you didnt.

do you remember the time i flirted with all those guys
to make you jealous an you were?
i thought you would leave me but you did'nt.

and remember the time i spilt strawberry pie all
over your tie?
i thought you would hit me but you did'nt.

and remember the time i forgot to tell you that the
dance was formal and you turned up in jeans?
i thought you would drop me but you did'nt.

yes,there were a lot of things you did'nt do but
you put up with me and loved me and protected me.
there were a lot of things i wanted to make up
to you when you returned from the war-front.
but you did'nt.

I've learned-
that just because two people argue,
it doesn't mean they don't love each
other. And just because they don't argue,
it doesn't mean they do




I've learned-
that sometimes when I'm angry
I have the right to be angry, but that
doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

Funny how the most vague people in the world can bring a smile to ur face.....God bless those vague souls.....

The smallest,most trivial things in the world make me happy.......like staring at the stars,or waving at a bus full of kids or talking to a strange dog......doesnt take much to make me happy.....

But then again it doesnt take much to make me sad.....the silliest things make me cry....I could depressed for the silliest reason....

Guess that makes me a vague character......but then again I'm one of those non existent souls that doesnt harm anyone......

MY existence has never effected anybody's life.....

But I'm sure I was sent down here for a reason....everyone has a purpose here....I know I have mine......that's what keeps me going.......