Priya's birthday today.....Happy bday Priya...
We've been frenz for 7 years now.....
Must have been through a gazillion fights and we dont have anything in common and we dont ever agree on anything.....
and yet she happens to be one of my favorite people........
lotsa people say she's my best friend.....but she's more like family to me......we know we'll always be there for each other....

Bitchiness should have a life span!!!!

The art of living through a completely non-sensical and annoying evening without showing one trace of human emotion....the growing up process has finally begun!

I wish I had taken the time to kiss them
I wish I hugged them a little longer
I wish I had'nt run away
I wish I had paid more attention when she was talking
I wish I went out with him more often
I wish I had told them how much i loved them
I wish they knew that I miss them.

I cannot turn back time,but I can't stop thinking about them.
It hurts,hurts bad.

I once was lost
But now I’m found
Was blind but now I see

-Amazing grace

Wondering how much I'll miss the entire jingpang when we all leave......we go our own ways.....they've been good to me....all of them.....will miss them.........somehow more people get added to the past that i'm so trying to let go off.....in six months they become a part of it......and it made me realise that somewhere down the line that three year old lives on in me......she never became a part of my past.....

Bottom line......will miss a whole lotta people i really care about.......I dont let them know that enough....


So now you start to recognize
That every single path you see
Leads to a tear in your eye
So wave goodbye, wave goodbye

-chris cornell

Healing comes so painfully
And it chills to the bone
Won't let anyone get close to me
I'm damaged,as I'm sure u know
I didnt say all the things that i wanted to say
And u cant take back what u've taken away
-Broke down palace-plumb

This piece just scored higher than crucify,sumhow plumb perks me up and keeps me going inspite of myself and the lyrics.....

Last nite's dream went sumthing like this.........
Turned into some kinda invisible spirit last night,it was like nobody saw me when i was on the tennis court and the side that lost the match were talking about how there was an indian girl on the court or was she there????........got up feeling like i was part of a c grade version of a manoj shyamalan movie.....not a good feeling in the morning......

little voice in my head yellling..."u butthead go get a freaking life!!!!!!!!!!!"
somehow that little voice never seems to leave me head anymore.....

Vague thoughts and events from the past come back to haunt you......

If I could only control my mind,i would be able to conquer the world.......

Vagueness is becoming a part of my personality............i will not let it happen.......

Today i ruined it............I'm not pointing fingers at anybody........... I ruined it on my own.............until i let go of my past.......my present will never be the same.......

Over the years......i have come to realise that there is no perfect human being.......flaws are an inbuilt part of any human being......but somehow it's difficult to accept that u too have flaws just like the rest of them and when somebody points them out to u......u scream,cry out loud and refuse to believe them......and the person pointing fingers at you,has his own set of flaws.........but then again like i said....noone's perfect.....

You have to master the art of working around the flaws..........somehow will take years to get there.......

It takes a perfectly silly conversation to ruin a perfectly good evening........and I somehow seem to have mastered it......

Sumday i'll look back and laugh.......but tonite i know none of us are.......

When i do look back,i hope i'm not laughing at the whole thing all by myself.......