Thursday, April 15, 2004

What can I say....It's been a roller coaster ride so far.....Expecting the unexpected is what I'm getting used to.......
Here I am....the so called impulsive girl that I claim to be.......and then there is the rest of teh world......it's back to me vs the world syndrome again......
what I see, and what they fail to see.....

I have my bad days,that's when I lay low....I never throw tantrums no matter how close ppl are to me....coz it's not worth hurting anyone just becoz ur hurting.....it turns into a chain reaction if everyone started venting out their frustrations on "someone close to them".

Pointing out mistakes in others...now that in itself is a flaw that most "flawless people" fail to understand!!!...

Noone's perfect....and neither are you....no matter how hard you try.....your only human.....and the harder you try the more obvious your flaws become....so relax and freaking get yourself a life!!!

Acceptance of people does not make you a great person especially when u constantly pick faults in them......that again makes you the kind of person who tries too hard to accomadate someone that they cant really understand......picking faults and trying to supposedly improve them is just a sham.......deep down inside you probably cant stand them enough!!!

Moving on to relationships.......there is no point pining for a man or a woman,if they dont want to be with you....why on earth would you want to be with them????....that's the worse thing in the world......first and foremost if the person u wanted did end up with u and they did not want to....and some twisted form of destiny put you two together.....pls dont rejoice.....becoz if one of u is not happy......the both of u wont be.....and this yet again is another way to make ur already pathetic life even more detestable than it was to start with!!!!

There is nothing called true love.....it's either love,no love or plain lust and a plethora of other emotions....but there is no such thing as true love!!!!!!

Just becoz one man or one woman said no to you......doesnt mean the entire species is full of bastards and bitches......it's human to vent it out....it's human to abuse the entire species at the time......but if u dont get a hold of ur life and continue venting your frustrations on a poor unsuspecting fellow being of the opposite sex.......high time you got all retrospective or u desperately need to have sex!!!!!!

I will change the world starting with lemme see...the first non-rebelling type person is the worst kind of frustration that I have seen in a long time.........grow up damn it......go pick on someone half as obnoxious as you!!!!!!!!!

Anyways if most of u havent figured it out yet......blogging is a way of venting out my frustrations on poor unsuspecting jobless people who want to know what's happening in my life.....welll atleast I have the balls to accept that I'm God's gift to the human race and that I hurt,I cry,I bitch,I moan,I get horny.Amen people!!


Monday, April 12, 2004

U make me want to be a better woman.....
Hurt my ego a long time ago......killed my mind,screwed me over.....took a great amount of effort on your part to make sure that I lost my mind.....U got close to achieving everything u set out to do to me......Thank you.

If I hadnt met you,I would have trusted and loved more.
If I hadnt met you,I wouldnt be half the bitch I am today.
If I hadnt met you,I wouldnt have had the courage to stand up for myself and fight the world.
If I hadnt met you,I wouldnt have had half the arrogance I have today.
If I hadnt met you,I wouldnt have recognized evil from a mile.

A lot of scars from the past......I'm taking my time to heal.....but what I've learnt today is that....your merely human......u love ,u still trust,someday someone will hurt u so bad that u wont know what hit you......but me.....I'm damaged ....and damaged people are dangerous,coz they know they can survive......
O God....I have no idea what's happening in my head.....It's spinning sooper fast at this point of time.....I dont know what's happening now....I have so much work to do and yet I have no idea where to start....

Got myself and a friend into a bloody mess over the weekend......it takes a great amount of talent to get urself and a friend cut over a friendly fist fight .He ended up with five stitches and I made three.......yeah I feel guilty......It's god's way of saying "pooja high time U behaved more like a grown up !!!".....anyways no more fist fights for me......

I am so lost at this point of time......but the best part is.....No matter how scared or hurt or lost I am.....there will always be a buncha ppl who manage to reprimand me in my time of desperation and need for a simple hug!!!

I guess a simple..."it's gonna be okay"....or a hug is too much to ask for.....

It just goes to show how much of space I got back home and yet how much we supported each other through every single phase.....apparently the people I have seen here are either perfectionists or they dont accept human emotion unless it's emoted by them!!!......they are the only form of life according to them......


My test would truly be how much I can tolerate this kind of hypocrisy.....I am getting close to the point of becoming numb to what these people have to say about me and themselves!!