Sitting here in my room listening to a cover version of loosing my religion by tori amos....totally low now.......a 100 emotions swimming in my head at the same time......the piano in the back ground and tori's voice add to my already confused state of mind......wish I could close my eyes and fall into deep slumber for about 48 hours and when i awake I hope I dont remember any of the unpleasent depressing memories......but life has a way of torturing u......no matter how hard u try to forget......the bad memories keep coming back to haunt u at the wrong place at the wrong time......

Dont know what I'm feeling right now....it isnt pain.....it's plain fatigue.....I am mentally drained out right now......devoid of any real emotion I can relate to...........