.....5 am,done with my work,exhausted....
random thoughts in my head....
my back hurts,I hate having my period,my head is spinning,I have a nauseas feeling,hope this code is okay,what I have to do over the weekend,I need some food,I need energy to walk outside and call the campus escort,I'll be home in three months,Am I stoopid coz I took all night to do this,why were you rude to me today?,my hair still feels frizzy,mind over matter,I should be home instead of wasting my time blogging,back to you again...I only asked if I was bothering you,what do I tell Lynn,hope this works out,I need the money,these tubelights are giving me a headache,need to watch the ghostbusters,I hope he does a show in Clemson,I'll go cheer for him,too scared to walk out,I hope it's not raining anymore,please god let the output be okay,where's that crazy song playing?,it's 5:18,time to go home,get up girl,if my life were a comic book...I'd be calvin and you'd be hobbes,Howard Roark,Yawn....

Hello,
Welcome to bRaindEaD cEntraL.....
if (you have nothing better to do)
proceed to next entry in blog
elseif(you u have a life already)
printf("why the fuck are you reading the brain dead gibberish I churn out!!")
elseif(you still wanna stick around)
print("welcome....you must be a bored friend of mine who gets a cheap thrill out of reading about my misery")
else
printf("I do not hold the owner of this blog responsible for my state of mental unstability")
end

I'm too numb to feel the pain tonight.......

This entry goes out to a certain friend of mine.....just want to say thank you to her tonite.....you know who you are......

Just one of those days when everything goes wrong.......days like these your just standing there in the middle of the road,all ready to throw yourself infront of a bus......that's also the same day that there's a road block and the bus takes a different route......you ask yourself the same question yet again....why me??......and suddenly you find yourself in the middle of a deserted street walking all by yourself on a warm summer night......your only comfort is the cool breeze that you feel against your face......
I'm so cold and broken tonight that the easiest way out for me would be to pop in a few pills and call it quits....it's so easy to end the pain in a moment of weakness and throw away 24 years of your existence.....there's only one thing that keeps me from doing the deed....I've come too far to throw it all away.....I know I'll make it through the night.......and I believe that tommorow will be a bright sunny morning...