I can evoke more emotion from a fire hydrant than I can from you!

Had a lousy day today......
but looking back all I can remember is what someone said to me today when I said "I'm up to my neck with work...I think I'm gonna die this semester"......they said "Your not gonna die pooja,the world needs you".......funny how I said I was gonna die so casually and the person said whatever he said so matter of factly...and I was in such a hurry,I said something crazier and walked away.......but after hobbling all over campus and meeting people who told me that I didnt have my priorities right and having been reduced to tears,not feeling too great about myself....and the sun burning into my skin all day long....
that sudden sinking feeling that you try so hard to overcome,the one that makes you want to end it all at once with one shot through your head......all I can think of now is "your not gonna die pooja,the world needs you".......for about 10 seconds,I smile.......that's my silver lining for today!

I needed to know the truth.I've waited all this while to find out.....I never talk about it anymore.........and it doesnt hurt as much as it did back then......it's all about growing up.....As much as I was growing up back then,so were the people who hurt me....there's noone left to point fingers at....we all paid our dues....it's a closed chapter,but I just cannot seem to forget what was said back then.Everyone was forgiven at the end of the day,but none of us have forgotten.
It would be wrong for me to judge them by what they use to be .They had no idea what they were doing and I had no idea what I was getting into.All that is left today is a feeling of indifference....
It was all meant to be one big fat joke when it happened.....I dont see any of us laughing today,and I dont see them laughing either.......
I still have a lot of growing up to do......but somewhere between back then and now,a whole new person was born.......for better or worse.....she's gonna be here for a while....

I sprained my ankle for the umpteenth time,been limping around the whole day!.To top it all,class starts tommorow and my first class is on the third floor....it's gonna be a fun day tommorow.
My phone bill and electricity bill happen to be three digit numbers which totally pissed me off.
Had the worst fight in the world with my best friend.For two fucking hours we were arguing and he still insists that I was squabling while he was merely stating facts!!!
My funding scene looks extremely bleak at this point.All the professors who thought they'd get funds seem to have gone on a long vacation!!
And last of all,you never called back....
If I got any luckier this week I'd get trampled by a herd of mad cows......We're still in the middle of the week,the rate at which this week is going ,getting raped by a mad goat seems like a likely event.