Another boring day comes to an end in my life.
Another weekend spent,hoping i had somewhere to go,someone to meet,someone special who would hold me in his arms and promise me that he'd never let go...
Wait a minute....isn't this what i've been running from all my life....committment and the thought of someone not legging go of me.....and sumhow i dont believe in these things during most part of the week.....but it's the weekends that i wish i could run away and hide with him far away....from the world... just me and him.....
egads i sound like i'm freaking 16...........somebody heeeeeeeellllllllllllllppppp me...........

Out across the endless sea
I would die in ecstasy
But I'll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road alone
-Norah jones

Writing my SOP shouldnt really be a problem.....I mean I just need to give them a reason as to why I chose their institute

I wonder if..."I wanted to start a new life where nobody knows me" is a decent reason for them to accept me.....I know I would if I was them...I'd say the girl is atleast telling u all the truth..

But then again I'm not on the committe that's choosing me....and therefore i have too cook up a good enough reason for them to accept me.

Makes u wonder why they emphasize that telling the truth is so freaking important when we were kids and now somehow u realise that telling the whole truth doesnt exactly help u get into the right university......

So I guess I'll have to distort the truth a little....or in my case blurr the entire damn truth beyond visibility........whatever that means......

Familiarity breeds contempt......Also the punching bag effect leads to frustration....especially if ur the bag......that's when u decide to turn into a cactus plant.....they punch u......they bloody get hurt......my thoughts are getting very profound i must say!!!!!!!!

u wish u could protect the people u love from any form of pain and misery....and no matter how hard u try....eventually u know that they are gonna get hurt......and that sucks!!!!!!!

Watched SCREAM today for the first time.......and at the end of it all.....i thought to myself......what a load of crap.....neverthless i'm going and getting part 2 and 3 too.....why u may ask......since i just mentioned that it was a whole load of crap.....well,this is exactly what boredom does to people.....I suspect that the people who made the movie were also going through the same phase in their lives......

When I'm hurt....I spend a hell lot of time thinking about the people who hurt me...I somehow forget about the ppl who helped me see it through....u know who u all are.....thank you for being frenz with me inspite of me.....

Nabeel thanks again......I owe u one.....(That's the nth time i'm saying that).....but then again thanks for being my friend inspite of me giving u a raw deal everytime....ur a real pal!!!

I can feel myself falling into the abyss.....i have to get out before i hit rock bottom......I know if I loose my mind again......i could never recover.......and I cant keep running for the rest of my life......I have to stop today...I cant point fingers anymore....it's me....and only me........At the end of the day i have myself to blame.....it's high time i retreat back into my world.....where i am the queen.....

I read a story of a boy who turned himself to ice. No one could hurt him through his walls of snow. No one could reach him through his blinding blizzard.The moral was supposed to be that when you shut yourself off from pain and all the bad you also shut yourself off from love and all the goodness.But where's the moral when no one is reaching?----unknown

That's exactly how i feel right now.....I have to fight this alone....

My empath demon comes back in different forms to hurt me......this time round he will not take them away from me......i will die fighting him.......but he can never ever crush me like he did.......i know i will die fighting him........but it's a risk i have to take to make sure that he never comes back.....

You got someone you think you know well
It turns out a stranger
The minute you turn your back
-toy story

Today's lesson
Once a creep always a creep.......creeps get creepier with time......

I am so prone to accidents especially where parked vehicles are concerned......I just fell off my bike again......for no particular reason.....I mean i sat on my bike and the next thing u know,i was on the ground.....happens to me all the time.....Infact sumtimes i think i'm so stupid,i'd probably get hit by a parked car...or MAYBE A PARKED BIKE in my case.......

Just realised that four years ago i was really naive.......not naive anymore.....just plain bitchy....

Nobody wants to know
cos nobody even cares
everyone's on the make
yeah and everyone's out for themselves
me i'm on the longest road
where everything's overload
but i've got my heart and soul
so don't throw me overboard

-travis